Breakups and Ex boyfriends

I would first like to start this entry out with a letter.

dear boys,

you all seriously suck and i hate you.

love,

haley

okay. so tonight i will most likely be running into my ex boyfriend who i haven't seen in 2 months. and i am not excited (well that's not completely true, i don't really know how i feel about it). what do i say? what do i wear? should i say hi to him with words or my open hand across his face? i have no idea. and no amount of advice or tips will give me the slightest idea of how i should act. i'm furious. i'm sad. i'm happy. i'm just not over it. and no matter what i say to my friends and family or to myself for that matter, if i'm being 100% honest about the situation i am still so in love with him, or at least who he was before we broke up. and just as much as i am in love with him i'm twice as much hurt by him for everything that happened over the past four years (yes, my entire college career). and i can't help myself from thinking that with time my wounds will heal and maybe we can be together again. not that i think he still wants to be with me, because due to the past 2 months of silence i don't think he does. 

anyway, this is just a universal difficult situation that everyone, including guys, have to deal with. seeing your ex is difficult, even more so when you still have feelings for the person. 

i feel like i've talked about my whole situation with my ex more times than any of my friends want to hear and i hate that i love(and hate) talking about it. it confuses me and leaves me feeling helpless and unworthy. which i know that i'm not either. i'm still holding onto the idea of us because i don't want to move on, but the only thing i'm holding onto is the pain.

Working Out & Fitspiration

So I recently signed up for the Philadelphia Half Marathon in November, and while I am a huge fan of working out, I have to admit that I have been slacking - especially when it comes to running. I ran the Broad Street Run in May and during the race injured my knee, so at this point when I run at about mile 2-3 my knee starts hurting a lot. I think part of my problem is that I have to strengthen the muscles around my knee but I'm no doctor. So in honor of summer and my training, this blog is working out and fitspiration. On my Pinterest, I use Thinspiration, but after thinking about it, I'd rather encourage being fit rather than being thin.. so here's to muscles :)

Yesterday's Workout:

30 minutes of cardio and then... 

Repeat 3 times!

The Power of Music

Music is a funny thing. The music and the lyrics can have such a powerful effect on you in just 2-3 minutes. It can make you feel like you're on top of the world or it can tear you down about a situation. Just in 3 minutes. It can remind you of the happiest moment of your life or the worst moment of your life. It can define memory and make it mean something completely different than it actually was. Music has the power to take over your soul and change your life.

 I need this pup! 

Life...

The crazy thing about life is that you can do whatever you want with it. You decide what you want to do, where you want to go, who you want to bring with you, and how you want to get there. Life is your choice. Some will chose to enjoy, while others will just endure it. And how you decide to spend your life is entirely up to you. So don't base your happiness on someone else or something else. Base your happiness on you.

Take me away.. 

i am IN LOVE with this dress

well said 

what i would give to be sailing right now..

NEED to make this!

i love my girl blake